O BAR ~ 12th Jul Last Sat, went to O Bar with chantelle,Trix & Juv. Its has been donkey years since I step there. Didn’t know that the drinks are dirt cheap! $12 for a jug! We drank & got high… Followed by Dbl O. Met MingXing & YuKang… my gf is so upset. She cried out loud & I felt so sad seeing her like that. Suddenly cried too. I couldn’t control myself. I was drunk by then. Telle called darling to fetch me. He came. I puke outside his car & was struggling with him coz I didn’t want anyone to touch me. He managed to take me home. I didn’t wana change either. I kept crying & I heard him saying:” Talk to me if you want, don’t cry”. I was too weak to reply him. All I know is I wana remove makeup & shower. I got to know from him the next day that I created drama. He said I asked for chantelle 5x, Cz 3x, trix 2x. I even pushed, kicked him. OMG! He even tore his LeVis jeans while struggling with me! (I tot Levis are rather tough). I was so silly that I even told him :”You cannot like other girls ok, must love me” WTF! I felt so embarrassed. He said that’s my true words… I don’t know why, seeing my darling on Sunday, after he told me what I said, a feeling came to me. I suddenly realize that im so afraid to lose him. I truly love this man & wana go thru all difficult times with him. Despite there were some unhappiness previously abt our future, now I know clearly that this is the only man I will love.
